Post by Brie on Dec 21, 2007 8:09:56 GMT -6
This is going to be my last post, at least for a while. Several months ago something happened that showed me that I had either over-thought my importance around here or that I'm the world's biggest sap. (I've since realized that it's probably a combination of both.) I almost quit then, but I wanted to go out on a high note. Around the same time some people had asked me about starting a mission, so we came up with the Prisoner Transfer. It was a simple story, but it got people excited and writing, and more of our members became involved as it went along. I'm very proud of those who took part. It was fun! By the end I had even almost talked myself out of leaving. But then the time for the election came and went and there was no one else who even remembered. So I decided to run the election myself, but to do that I had to step down from the position that I had cherished for so long. And with that, I decided that I had to go.
Ironically, the people who had a vote of no confidence in me have no problem disappearing for several months, expecting me to keep things going. Why does no one ever think that I might be just as busy as they are? Everyone needs to MAKE time for a group like this to work, but there is such an attitude of "Paula will do it, she'll always be around" that it's not even funny. Everyone else is allowed to take a break, I wasn't even allowed to leave town for my grandmother's funeral without having problems thrown at me while I was gone, expecting immediate results. I don't mind carrying some of the story but it is an awfully big battlestar to have dropped in my lap. I'm also tired of being talked down to, tired of being ignored, tired of being treated like I'm just an over-emotional female, because I'm not. And I don't think that everyone should post as much as I have, but some people seem to think that because I've posted a lot that they don't have to, and that's not the case. I realize now that my posting as much as I have has been detrimental to this group, and for that I am truly sorry. With this letter I'm not looking for praise or false acclamations, so please don't tell me how much I've meant to this group. If everyone makes an effort you will get along just fine without me. One word of advice, though. Remember to read what other people write, because it can be so obvious when you don't. You expect others to read what you write, have the same respect for them.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to turn this into a big complaint letter, I just wanted to try to explain why I'm leaving. I realize that my leaving turns me into an incredible hypocrite, and I apologize for that as well. If there is anyone out there that I've somehow hurt or offended or if I pointed out an error, I'm sorry. As I was once told after writing my heart out and someone changed an important plot point, "It doesn't matter, no one remembers details anyway." I'm also resigning publicly from Core Command, I don't want any part of the so-called leadership of this group, even if I decide to come back. I also need to thank Scott, your idea to make me a member of the Council of the Twelve was a really nice gesture. It was just too late, as I had already decided to leave, which was why I turned it down.
I've been told by more than person that I am the heart and soul of the Callisto. That isn't how it should be, the heart and soul should be ALL of our members. I've written Brie out of the story, please assume that she's dead, don't go looking for her. Please also leave the NPCs that I've created alone, especially Pierce. His organization is going to stay quiet, they wouldn't be bothering the fleet for many more years. If you need to contact me email me instead of leaving a message here since I won't often be checking in, if you don't have my main email address ask Skyler, I give him permission to give it out. I've made some great friends here, I will always be grateful for that. And who knows, I might be back. I just REALLY need a break.
Thank you for the past several years, and I wish you all the best. Merry Christmas to everyone. Goodbye and good luck.
Ironically, the people who had a vote of no confidence in me have no problem disappearing for several months, expecting me to keep things going. Why does no one ever think that I might be just as busy as they are? Everyone needs to MAKE time for a group like this to work, but there is such an attitude of "Paula will do it, she'll always be around" that it's not even funny. Everyone else is allowed to take a break, I wasn't even allowed to leave town for my grandmother's funeral without having problems thrown at me while I was gone, expecting immediate results. I don't mind carrying some of the story but it is an awfully big battlestar to have dropped in my lap. I'm also tired of being talked down to, tired of being ignored, tired of being treated like I'm just an over-emotional female, because I'm not. And I don't think that everyone should post as much as I have, but some people seem to think that because I've posted a lot that they don't have to, and that's not the case. I realize now that my posting as much as I have has been detrimental to this group, and for that I am truly sorry. With this letter I'm not looking for praise or false acclamations, so please don't tell me how much I've meant to this group. If everyone makes an effort you will get along just fine without me. One word of advice, though. Remember to read what other people write, because it can be so obvious when you don't. You expect others to read what you write, have the same respect for them.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to turn this into a big complaint letter, I just wanted to try to explain why I'm leaving. I realize that my leaving turns me into an incredible hypocrite, and I apologize for that as well. If there is anyone out there that I've somehow hurt or offended or if I pointed out an error, I'm sorry. As I was once told after writing my heart out and someone changed an important plot point, "It doesn't matter, no one remembers details anyway." I'm also resigning publicly from Core Command, I don't want any part of the so-called leadership of this group, even if I decide to come back. I also need to thank Scott, your idea to make me a member of the Council of the Twelve was a really nice gesture. It was just too late, as I had already decided to leave, which was why I turned it down.
I've been told by more than person that I am the heart and soul of the Callisto. That isn't how it should be, the heart and soul should be ALL of our members. I've written Brie out of the story, please assume that she's dead, don't go looking for her. Please also leave the NPCs that I've created alone, especially Pierce. His organization is going to stay quiet, they wouldn't be bothering the fleet for many more years. If you need to contact me email me instead of leaving a message here since I won't often be checking in, if you don't have my main email address ask Skyler, I give him permission to give it out. I've made some great friends here, I will always be grateful for that. And who knows, I might be back. I just REALLY need a break.
Thank you for the past several years, and I wish you all the best. Merry Christmas to everyone. Goodbye and good luck.